One Time

I used to be the one who lived in solitude. Day by day with nothin' and i didnt do any stuffs. I know, it's horrible, disgusting and i myself dont even want it. Then, i found you, the special one. Yes, you were so special at that time. Too special causes finally i lost my solitude and i've never felt alone longer. You did it!!

Then someday, in the fright night, i was brooding, i was looking for some ways to reward you kindness, your  special. Naturally, i promised myself to always be there for you, accompany you, chilling with you, help you, and a lot others. I myself even willin to waste my precious time, my worth time for only with you. Because i know, you're good and i want to reward your kindness also i've promised myself before. You asked a lot of stuffs, i answered. You wanted me to do a lot of stuffs, i did it. And overall, i did it for you as long as i could..

Yes! We're being best friend, best partner ever!! And with you, i found something that i didnt find with someone else.. With you, i know how to act right, how to think right, cuz you teach me a lot of life's secret! We shared our life, we told each other and we shared our secrets. You're the most different one i've ever seen. Yes and till now i still keep it. You got my belief and I got yours. Ye, we're worthy :) And I was so happy for having you!

It happens for a very looooooooooong term. And we're getting very very close till now. I mean, the communication is good! Yep! Everybody is gettin jealous of us i know it. But now I'm jealous with everybody.. The beauty has gone, cant stay longer, belief finally split, indifferent is on, and i dont know why?

Are you busy? Are you bored? Or any else? Tell me then! But You dont speak it out, and i will never know why then. Nowadays, i just feel that you're different tho. I dont know, i really really dont know. I dont know the new you, the most different with the first you i knew. A lot of thoughts come on my mind and it just disturb me at all tho! My life, my precious life seems like highly dependent on you. Idk, am I addict? No!!!!

I learn it, i watch it, and i make conclusion. YES! The conclusion may be.. you're just a bean which separated from the chaff or any else, you're just temporary and wont permanent. The new you never do the same with what i've done to you. WE ARE NOT WORTH ANY LONGER! a lot of times i try to remove it or just I familiarize myself without you, slowly and slowly then.

So i finally think : "Why the fuck I have to do what do you want to, easily tho? You dont even put on any efforts, so why the fuck should I?". It's about EQUIVALENCE!! It's a bout BELIEF! About FRIENDS and OLD RELATIONSHIP WE HAVE MADE!! But, you didnt respect though only one of them, so lemme do the same, my mate!!! I know our thinking is not same and it's on different ways now. I appreciate it!

Good 4 You..