Waiting for Hesitant --> Kill You Inside

I've fallen in love of course. That's an usual feel of human. Yeaa, guys love girls, and girls do so. I have a love, and my love is a girl. She was so wonderful, she was so beautiful and she was so attractive person I've ever known in the love life. I had broke up with her, and it had happened in 2010. But, I still have a love for her and I can't lie to myself.

Now, she got a new guy. And she is happy now, maybe. I can't to hoping for her anymore. I mean, I don't want in this situation, HESITANT. It feels like, bad, kill me inside. And don't give me a result. So why the fuck I have to be always in that? I no need to be that. I just can feel, sadness, worries, crazy! I gotta move on and change. To be better. but it doesn't mean with a new girl.

Friends! Yeaaa! They are always there for me. They can make me happy always. And fool me if I prefer choose that foolish! I don't even get any happiness, haha damn :@

Nah, Friends, partying, hunting, shopping, hanging out with them always have a different beautiful story :)

Anw, when y're single, you can do anything as much as you want. You don't need to worry about something silly. You are single it means you MUST be happy. Friends, always there for you. Don't too much think about love in the hesitant situation. They have no certainty!

Mempelajari "MANDIRI" dan "SENDIRI"

Anak-anak, yaa mereka identik dengan penurut dan tidak mengerti apa-apa ketika berada diluar lingkungan mereka. Dan yang akan selalu dilakukan adalah mengikuti orang dewasa atau orang tuanya. Ya, mereka begitu karena mereka belum mengerti apa-apa dalam dunia ini.

Bagaimana kalau anak itu tumbuh menjadi remaja baru, bukan anak-anak. Apakah mereka akan bertingkah sedemikian rupa? Hmm I dont think so.

An, that kid is me! Hahahahahaha

Okey, sekarang aku adalah remaja SMA berusia 16 tahun! Banyak yang mengatakan outside remaja tapi inside anak-anak. Jelas, itu tidak bisa aku terima! Selain menghilangkan itu dengan cara bertingkah no childish, aku melakukan sesuatu yang yaa, kalau dulu aku selalu tidak bisa melakukannya.

Pertumbuhan dan perkembangan ini memaksaku untuk belajar mandiri dan melakukan sendiri tanpa petunjuk orang tuaku. Maksudku, ehm... kita benar-benar belajar dari NOL! Dari tidak tau apa-apa hingga menjadi tau apa-apa. Bisa dibilang hal ini mudah dan "apaan gitu doang!" bagi sebagian orang, tapi tidak denganku.

Dan yang akan aku lakukan adalah BERTAHAN DI LUAR KOTA SELAMA 1 HARI PENUH tanpa siapapun aku kenal dan bantuan dari teman/orang tua. Hahaha it sounds weird right?! But, sooner or later I will do it, mate.

Yap, aku berencana untuk pergi ke suatu kota, sendiri, without anyone. Dari situlah, aku akan sngat dituntut untuk bertahan 1 hari penuh di kota itu. Dari berangkat sampai pulang. Dan disitu aku harus bertahan, mau ini harus gimana dulu, mau itu harus gimana, pokoknya semua mandiri dan sendiri. Hmmm yaa, itu hal yang menantang bagiku!

Learn how to survive in the new age goes to adult is very required!! :)

Thanks for reading! :)

New Year 2012!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 EVERYONE!!!!! Yep, we are in the new year now, 2012!
And a moment ago, a whole world were helding the celebration by their own ways :)

Last nite, I spent the last time in 2o11 with Irfan, Cynthia, Dherta, Tata and Dimitri by singing together in NAV. Nah I planned at 7 oclock at there, so we can sing 2 hours long. It would be nice before the RAIN CAME!!! Oh Damn Goosh!! We gotta wait for the rain stop. and finally the rain stopped at 8.30 PM :o

Yeee, we went to cynthia's home soon! Tata n dimitri were there already, I came, Irfan came, and we together picked dherta up. after that, we went to NAV to sing. Hmm there was no small room. So we booked in the medium and we paid about Rp 180.000 to sing 2 hours long. No problem, the point is I and Irfan can make it comes true. This is Irfan's dream n me. Hahaha

At the room, we were singing together, we were happy, no sad, no worries, no bad side. We were happy at all :) We planned to go to downtown after that.
Anw, though our voices were not good enough, that was not a problem, xoxoxo :))
We sang only 1 hour 30 minutes, because we gotta went to downtown and watch the fireworks and meet the other friends who have been waiting for us. Outside NAV, we saw people, people and people were walking together went to downtown. I saw no cars, no motors and no vehicles in the street. I heard trumpets sound everywhere.

We met the other friends and we were waiting for 00.00.. and........................

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!! 00.00

The fireworks began, they were so beuatiful, sweet and colorful in the sky :)



The Fireworks

I saw it with Irfan only, because we had lost from the others. The fireworks had been helding about 45 minutes. After that, Irfan and I saw the others and we gathered together.
We were happy happy at the last time of 2011!

Cheering :))

We made a lot of good wishes for 2012, and I no need to write them down here, hehe
Happy New Year All!!!

Yoraku Sayang

Seorang sahabat itu bisa menyembuhkan luka hati

Menarikmu dari nada-nada sedih yang melingkupi

Menerangi langitmu yang kelabu

Menjernihkan dusta-dusta yang menipu

Seorang sahabat selalu siap dengan tangan terbuka

Untuk menghiburmu dan melindungimu dari marabahaya

Untuk membantu menyimpan segala rahasiamu

Untuk menemanimu saat kamu ingin bersenang-senang

Seorang sahabat selalu ada disampingmu, dalam suka dan duka

Dalam saat-saat bahagia atau penuh ketakutan

Selalu menyenangkan dan selalu ceria

Dan ikatan diantara sahabat akan senantiasa abadi

SAYANG SAHABAT :* :*

Buat YORA tersayang, MESSAGE :Yor, aku sayang sama kamu. Aku gamau ditinggalin sama kamu. Aku takut kangen kamu, aku maunya kamu tetep disini. Gak boleh pergi Yor :'(

Yor kamu tau ? kalo aku kangen kamu, pasti airmataku berlinang. Aku gamau nangisin kamu Yor. Kalian itu separuh jiwaku, jadi kalo salah satu dari kalian pergi, aku bagaikan hidup dengan jiwa yang tak utuh. Kamu tau kan itu gimana ?

Yor inget ya ? pokonya disana kamu ga boleh nakal, ga boleh sedih, ga boleh lupain kita ya ?

BERAT yor lepasin kamu :'(

Aku sayang kamu banget :*

SMS ku ini disimpen yaa ? baca sewaktu-waktu :* jangan dihapus ! LOVE YOU :') :*

note by fani safitri

Yor, Aku, Cynthia, Fani, Shierly dan Gita sangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatt sayang sama kamu! Kami akan sangat merindukanmu, baik-baik disana yaa :(

Prapastikara Big Camp 2011 #Part2

At the 2nd day, saturday 19th November, there were some competition. Kinda forget what kind of it, but cooking competition, hiking, finding flag.The competition was great! I think there's no boring side at that day. Cooking team are ahmad, bangon n Julian. Finding flag are Me n Erlangga. Hiking are Lukas, Prayoga, n Royce.

Coocking team : They made a soup and fried chicken with soy sauce! Well the taste was yummy enough! Haha

These are the photos from cooking competition

Hiking : Yap! Based on the name, they had to walk around based the lane

Hiking

Finding Flag : We gotta find the clue, clue, and clue to find the flag.

Well in the second day, Our team felt fucking nervous. You know why? Because at night there will be a camp fire and PENSI! oh my Gooooooooooood! We had prepared our perform but we still felt nervous. We gave them a dance. We acted like a boy band within famous korea song.

Before the pensi

Oh yeaaaa, after diner, we were feeling so fucking nervous at tent. We practice our motion inside there. The camp fire was great. The fire was fucking hot and big! Haha but we enjoy that night, though the weather was cold and we didn't wear a jacket.

Taraaaaaaaaaaaaa.... PENSI TIME! The perform has been opened by Aksel. They gave a drama. XA acoustic, XB dance n sing, XC unknown, XD Boy band dance, XE Acoustic, XF sang a song, XG sang a song, XH sang a song. But I think the best performance came from my class!!! XD!

Oh My God, when we were dancing everyone was cheering, screaming, laughing at us! Gooooodd!! They seemed very love our dance n songs! Hahaha thank you for the attention.

After that, we felt very proud, happy and satisfied because we had presented our best to them! And you know what, we received much congrats :) Thank Yooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! I love the audiences!!

Time to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepp!! we slept at 11.23 pm at evening! But when we were sleeping, there was fucking silly activity happened! Seniors asked us to wake and gather together near the camp fire. You know why, we will listen lecture and yeaa sad things! Like Night Reflection! UNIMPORTANT!!!!

Finally it done! We went back to sleep. Oh God, the weather was so cold. And it forced me to look

for warmth. And then I slept within embracing with Julian, hahaha noprob, it made me warm! and Julian too!!

Prapastikara Big Camp 2011 #Part1

Hay guys, I come back with a new stroy. Well in this time I'd like to tell you about my experience when I was camping on Selondo, Ngawi for 3 days. Here we go..
First day, Friday 18th November 2011 we went to selondo by truck. We brought a lot of stuffs in our bags. On the way, we were joking and laughing! Finally we arrived at the place. The place was so beautiful! Green! Cool! and amazing in every side! anw, the location located in the mountain, so the path is hard to be through.
After that, we searched for our place, we made the tent on it. Well it took long time, haha :D
the tent finally stood, then we were on opening ceremony.

ISHOMA and we took a rest for some minutes. Haha well it was an amazing time for us! We felt tired at all. You know what? Poor us, suddenly the rain came!! Oh Gosh! We gotta set the sheeting on the tent. And also it made out tent seemed "Lendong" zzz but no problem, we were still alive inside the tent! Hehe many people went for evacuated to the houses near the location. yeaaaaa but that was a cool story for 1st day

How Evil Me!!

Well I wanna tell something, Its about ehm my friends. Haha In this story, may be will shows me how evil me! Yeaaa but this is the truth. I love a person. call the person as X. But, X in the diffrent class with me, haaaa. I wanna know all about X ofcourse. So, Im thinking how to know about it. Theeeeen.. I found the way. I use my friends who are in the same class with X. I ask them to always watch ever X's motion. And then, I ask the report about X to them. They gimme a report, xoxoxo I am so fucking happy.
Well, thoung in the diffrent class, I still can know X easily :)))

Different is Beautiful

I'm wondering why much people always judge a person who comes different? Hmm, It sounds weird. I think, the differences make this world be better. There will be so many kind of people. And it also makes us to learn for the every difference.

Why I say that, because I'm different. And I love to come different in the public. But, some of people who meet me always watching at me, judge me because of my difference! Hell for you. I have my own way to live my life. I dont give a Fuck for people like that. Please, respect every people whatever they do and whatever their appearance!

Just Say The Truth

I'm always jealous, when I saw you with your new friends. It feels like, Im not willing to losing you. In my hope, I want to keep with you, wherever, whenever, till the world ends. I dont know why, but you had made me falling in love with you....
Falling in love as friend, best friend. And it's gonna be hard if we separated. You are my hope, and please dont ignore me.

Opening Ceremony SeaGames 2011

Hay hay, so long no see you readers :) How's life? Wish you good. Anw, Its good to see youuuuu.
Here, I'd like to write about ehm opening ceremony of sea games 2011 Indonesia Palembang - Jakarta. Yeaaaaaa.. at this year, Indonesia becomes the host of 26th sea games. If you dont know about sea games, sea games is a sport event, competation in ASEAN regional. The participants come from each country in ASEAN regional.

Well, sea games has a lot of sports that are contested. The opening ceremony has been implemented in Palembang on 11/11/11 ago. The opening was great! I give 4 thumbs for themz!!! You guys, here are the photos