Sorry, I messed up everything

For a bro of mine...


I just wish I was brave enough to talk to you.
In my head everything is so messed up, but I'll try my best to explain.

After all this time, I still don't know how to stop remembering our memories and looking for you everywhere I go. I don't know if I miss you, or if I miss having conva with you. But I don't know if I'll ever feel as comfortable with someone as I was with you.
I miss having you to tell with me and to share small things. You were the one I could tell everything, because you were the only one who completely won my trust. but I guess you already know that.

I guess its too naive to think that we could get back together. I ruined it and I dont know how to fix it. I feel really bad about what I did to you. Maybe I was too young to actually be with someone so dedicated to me. I feel sorry about the reasons. And it really breaks my heart that we're not together, and that is my entire fault.

I'm afraid I'm gonna tell you all those things and then one day wake up and feel completely different. I'm not sure about anything. I can't assure you a future. That's how I am, and that's how I screwed it all.
I'm also really afraid you are not the same. I'm afraid that I made you change, and you completely erased me. I'm afraid, besides almost sure, you hate me right now - and I hate myself for that. I feel the worst person in the world when I remember everything I did, and the pain you felt because of me. Then I think that you're totally right in hating and avoiding me, and I should move on. But I'm afraid I can't get over you.

If I'm right and you hate me, please do me a favor one last time . But if you're able to forgive, just call me - maybe you still remember my number, just like I never forgot yours or i think you know the directions to connect with me - and I promise I will try my best, so things can feel right again. I promise to tell you everything and hear you carefully. I just have to warn you that some things don't change. I can be really moody and I am still insecure.

Opening Ceremony 4th PorProv Jatim 2013 Madiun

Greet warm dedicates to my loyal and lovely reader :) Hows life people? Its been several months i didnt write about historical story, lol. So in time im back and bringing u a story about Opening Ceremony of 4th PorProv Jatim 2013 which is held in my city, Madiun.

Porprov adalah Pekan Olahraga Provinsi yang diadakan tiap 2 tahun sekali disemua provinsi di Indonesia. Di Jawa Timur ini adalah kali ke 4 PorProv diadakan. PorProv ke 4 kali ini, Madiun kotaku menjadi tuan rumah pembukaan sekaligus penyelenggara Porprov. 

Event besar yang rencananya diadakan hingga tanggal 29 juni mendatang memiliki cabang olahraga yang dipertandingkan seperti futsal, sepakbola, tennis, bulu tangkis, voli pantai, atletik, dll. 

Nah spesifik ditulis ini, saya akan membahas tentang persiapan upacara pembukaannya atau opening ceremony Porprov ke 4 ini. 

OC didesign semegah, sespektakuler dan sesempurna mungkin. Tak tanggung-tanggung, dana 2.5M digelontorkan pemerintah dan penyelenggara untuk menyukseskan pembukaan ini. Sederet penammpilan disuguhkan seperti tari gambyong massal 800 siswi SMA-SMK se-Madiun, ada juga tim koreo dan paduan suara 1600 siswa-siswi SMA-SMK se-Madiun, marching band dari SMP 1 dan 13, serta tak lupa The TRIAD Band! 

Latian dimulai sejak bulan april untuk tari gambyong. Sedangkan koreo dilaksanakan latian mulai pertengahan Mei sebelum UKK hingga 22 Juni siang. Nah! Disinilah saya akan bercerita semua kejadian selama latihan koreo ini. Oiya, sebelumnya saya termasuk dari 1600 tim koreo OC ini. 

Koreo dipesertai oleh siswa siswi SMA 1 2 3 4 5 6 serta SMK 1 dan 3. Dipimpin oleh Mas Gepeng dan tim-nya. Hari demi hari terus dilaksanakan latihan, dari pukul 7 hingga 10. Kita diajarkan banyak attraksi gerakan dan tahap-tahap ditamapilkannya gerakan2 tsb. 

Setiap harinya, latihan koreo tak lepas dari amarah dan emosi serta terikan dari mas Gepeng yang beragam. Seperti misalnya ketidakkompakan, kesalahan gerak, dll. Ada 2 sekolah yang memang sangat susah diatur dan diajak kerjasama, yang tentunya bukan dari SMA 2, hehe. Gerakan selalu salah, sehingga harus diulang terus dan yang jelas menimbulkan kemarahan peserta lain dan Mas Gepeng tentunya. Jelas saja, latihan yang dilakukan di stadion wilis yg sekaligus menjadi venue OC itu terasa sangat menyiksa karena membakar habis kulit oleh sinar matahari yang panasnya nembus sampe bagian kulit terdalam. Ada lagi 1 sekolah yang duhduh bener-bener bikin jengkel, tempat duduknya serba mawut ngga karuan sampe nyebar sana-sani. Yang bikin saya dan teman-teman marah adalah ketika siswa2 yang mendapatkan bendera khusus tempat duduknya tidak boleh berganti, termasuk saya. Eh, pas latihan tempat duduk kami ditempati siswa-sisiwi dari sekolah tsb yang sontak kami usir saja mereka. Herannya lagi, pembina mereka sungguh ngga kompeten dalam mengatur muridnya. Pokoknya 3 sekolah itu bener-bener ampun deh, berasa lebih baik mereka gaikut alias dicopot saja! 

Ada satu peristiwa yang benar-benar mencenangkan dan mengagetkan. Terjadi pada tanggal 22 Juni pukul 10. Hari itu kami latihan koreo seperti biasa. Waktu, tempat dan suasana panas yang sama tentunya. Latihan diakhiri pukul 10 pagi. Seperti biasa setelah latihan kami menuju tangga kiri panggung untuk keluar stadion. Ketika tim koreo sedang antri diatas panggung untuk turun menuju pintu keluar, tiba-tiba panggung utama yang saat itu seedang menahan beban 1300an anak, ambrol dan semua anak yang sedang antri diatas panggung tengggelam dan jatuh seketika. Sontak seluruuh tim yang sedang melakukan gladi resik panik dan berlari ke arah mereka untuk membantu. Mobi-mobil PMI dan ambulans berdatangan. Untung saja saat itu saya masih berada ditribun karena saya menunggu sepi untuk turun keluar stadion. Pristiwa itu sangat cepat dan mengagetkan. Tersiarr kabar, 30an luka ringan, 5 orang patah tulang dan Mas Gepeng tertimpa sound system karena memang saat itu ia berada dibawah panggung untuk memberi pengarahan kepada teknisi.

Semua mata terpana pada TKP, para panitia membantu korban-korban keluar dari runtuhan panggung. 

Setelah keadaan cukup aman, kami yang tersisa dikeluarkan dari stadion satu per satu dan saat itu juga area sekitar stadion disterilkan. 

Waktu saya buka socmed seperti twitter dan facebook, beh saya kaget! Banyak sekali orang yang berkicau tentang yang intinya "Itulah kuasa Allah, jika kau sepelekan Dia! Itu masih hal kecil wahai pemerintah dan pelaksana" dengan variasi tweet dan status facebook yang beragam tapi masih dengan 1 inti sama. Well, memang malam sebelumnya, karena keadaan akan hujan dan gladi belum dilakuukan sedangkan acara sudah sangat mepet, seluruh peserta dan tim diminta untuk tidak shalat magrib 1x saat itu, karena ya memang waktu sangat tidak memungkinkan. Nah disitulah, para remaja termasuk remaja brutal yang tiba-tiba berubah jadi sok agamis dan bersorak menghujat acara. I think, theres no way to justify this crap!

Tapi, syukur Alhamdulillah, pada tanggal 22 Juni pukul 19.30 - 23.00 acara Pembukaan Pekan Olahraga Provinsi Jawa Timur, lancar, sukses dan resmi dilaksanakan. Kerja keras selama ini akhirnya terbayar lunas!

Dan hormat kami untukmu, Mas Gepeng! 

 

Suasana Upacara Pembukaan Porprov Jatim ke 4 di Madiun

 

Penampilan TRIAD Band

Selamat berjuang para atlet! Junjung tinggi sportifitas dan fair play! Pemenang sesungguhnya adalah mereka yang bertanding dengan bakat demi prestasi! Salam Olahraga!!

Tentang Aku Saat Ini

Pernahkah kamu berada dalam sebuah kondisi dimana kamu benar-benar merasa sendiri? Merasa tak memilik 1 orang sahabat pun, bahkan keluargamu tidak ada? Merasa bahwa hidup ini sudah tak menggandeng sebuah tujuan? Merasa gundah gulana? Merasa kosong dan seolah hanya terwakili oleh jasadmu ketika mengikuti kelas? Aku merasakannya saat ini.
Ada bermiliyar tanya dan pikiran yang menaggantung diantara sela-sela sel otakku saat ini. Semuanya berat. Membuatku pusing dan terkadang aku merasa ngelindur. Ya, mungkin itu salah 2 efeknya.
Kehidupanku 1 bulan terakhir ini terkesan seperti kehidupan yang sudah diujung tanduk. Alias sudah saatnya menghentikan sebuah hembusan nafas. Oh, tenang! Saya seorang terpelajar yang tidak berpikiran pendek, saya masih memiliki pertimbangan untuk itu. Tapi, memang begitu adanya yang saya rasakan.
Setiap pagi datang, selalu ada sebuah pikiran yang langsung menghantamku. Bukan pikiran tentang terlambat masuk sekolah/tugas yang lupa dikerjakan/apakaah ada sms di hp, semuanya bukan. Pikiran itu tentang bagaimana aku akan melewati hari baru ini? Entahlah, pesimistis benar-benar memelukku selama 1 bulan terakhir ini. Beberapa kali aku malas masuk sekolah, pinginnya sih berangkat, tapi ga ke sekolah, alias colut. Tapi, mau colut kemana? Aku juga takut dosa kok.
Situasi pertemananku dengan teman-temanku juga terasa sedikit pahit. Entah aku yang kurang memasukkan 'gula' ataukah mereka, aku tidak tau. Tapi, yang jelas aku merasa seperti atoz dan kolot. Maka dari itu, aku lebih sering memilih sendiri dan tidak banyak omong. Aku sesekali mencoba mengajak beberapa temanku berinteraksi, bercanda, dsb tapi hasilnya sama saja. Beberapa merasa ketus, males, tak ada gairah denganku. Bahkan orang yang aku anggap sahabat pun berlaku sama. Mungkin memang aku yang kurang memasukkan 'gula'. Tidak masalah bagiku, lagipula pada beberapa waktu, aku memang sedang ingin sendiri dan kurangi interaksi.
Keluargaku juga. Ehm, sebenarnya ini hal privacy, tapi tak apalah aku tuangkan dalam tulisan ini. Karena memang blogger yang masih mau menerima tiap huruf dalam cerita yang aku tulis. Keluargaku itu keluarga yang bukan keluarga, deh. Jujur, aku jarang berkomunikasi dengan ayah, mama dan adikku. Karena memang aku tinggal bersama nenek dan kakekku. Komunikasiku dengan mereka buruk, bahkan via sms pun jarang-jarang. Dulu, biasanya every weekend aku pulang kerumah, untuk mengambil uang jajan mingguan. Berhubung ayah sudah memperbolehkan aku membuka rekening, pengambilan uang pun via transfer aja, jadi gak pernah deh kerumah. Mamaku sibuk, super sibuk sekarang! Dalam seminggu bisa terbang sampe 2x karena tugas dan urusan pekerjaan. Tapi, mama masih lumayan sering sms aku beberapa kali waktu malam. Biasalah, sms wisdom dan nasehat buat anaknya. Adikku, hampir ga pernah komunikasi. Karena memang pada dasarnya kami tidak begitu akrab, ohya dia wanita. Aku dan adikku memiliki dunia remaja yang berbeda dan aku ataupun dia sibuk dengan dunia kami masing-masing. Sementara nenek kakekku, aku lebih sering dengan mereka, meski percakapan biasanya baru dimulai saat makan malam. (Karena ketika pulang sekolah-makan malam aku berada dikamar terus).
Lalu bagaimana dengan hatiku? Haha, obviously my heart feels empty. Without any loves inside, im a lil bit dying. Ini bukan mauku, lagipula siapa sih yang menginginkan berada dalam kondisi seperti ini?! Tentu saja tidak ada. I have no girlfriend, and bestfriends of mine are changing, so that i have no people to love, to get my concern or anything like that. I'm being silent all day long in any chances. And one thing i keep still is.. i wont let the situation forces me to suffer. I must be happy whatever the ways will. I just have to! Aku tidak mempersalahkan besar-besaran semua ini. Aku pernah dalam kondisi seperti ini sebelumnya, dan nyatanya aku masih tetap hidup. Aku sedang berusaha membahagiakan diriku sendiri apapun caranya. Meski aku akui itu sangat berat, karena memang kebahagiaan kita beberapa tersumber dari orang-orang disekitar kita. I wish it will end as soon as possible it will, because no one can survive on this kind of situation though he got whole money to spend!

Days Through Out Jakarta!

I think, im late just too far to post this. But, i keep my desire to because these photos are worth it. Taken when my friends and I were having journey to Jakarta to celebrate 2013 Worlds' Water Day in University of Indonesia - Depok. Well here we go..

 

The boys at the yard of Rektorat Building UI

 

Irfan's team presented their presentation 

 Me and my teams' turn

 

They were the horrible judges. I was impressed with their titles 

 

 While the break time

 

Break time inside of Rektorat Building

 

At the end of activity, that grandma offered us such a precious trip to look around of UI with her. She was very nice, very very kind and we wont forget u because of what u have given to us, Eyang Indres

 Dinner before The Night Trip around Jakarta!

 Grand Hyatt, Jakarta

 

Grand Indonesia Shopping Town! This what i called My Worlds' Paradise!

 The boys at Bundaran HI, Jakarta. It was 11 pm

 Taken in front of Monas's entrance

 Tugu Monumen Nasional, Jakarta

 Eyang Indres among us

 ArIr was watching that famous landmark of Jakarta

 One by one having a date with Monas :)

At Bundaran HI, Jakarta

 Well those are the photos we have taken while we having days in Jakarta. It was such a precious memory i wont ever forget. Facing lions on their home, presented something ive never known before in front of nerds and a lot of amazing stuffs there! 

Them who i know

As a normal person, i myself realize that we cant live alone. We do live with people. People, yes! All of us has people around. They came up with tons of different characters, behaves, acts, religion, race and etc.
Its been 17 years i live my life, i spend my time till now im in 2nd year of high school. I met a lot of people.
But now then gonna discuss they who are around me.

Cynthia :  she has grew up. Since the first time i knew her, in 7th grade at junior high. Shes my best best best friend always. She cares, a lot. She is lovely, she is smart. And of course she is beautiful. Cynthia always understands and sometimes she's willing to do a sacrifice. The last sentence i wrote, is the reason i love her.

Husna : This girl is a lot of talkative. She annoys me sometimes but i love her incredible thoughts too somehow. She got a damn flat nose for sure and surely it becomes a material as a joke in the class. I love her strength, shes not a powerless girl, she stands for what she wants. She keeps it till she got it no matter what Shes always there to accompany me, and she loves my logic thinking too tho. We met at 8th grade

Irfan : The first impression, I DENIED HIM. And, i never meant to be his friend. But i remember, things change. He has a got sense, i mean some of his are alike with mine. Politics, economics, nations, world, kind of stuffs like that. We met at 9th grade. He has a strong opinion, criticize person ive ever met, and hes just different from other teen in the age. Ive ever told him, i was curious bout his life, cuz i thought i deserved to be. He has a very good principle. But u have to notice, not all time we are good. Hes kinda selfish i think and lil bit jerk. I hear that from friends around anyway.

Dherta : U gotta know the fact, i was never that much close with her in the junior high. It seemed like "Oh You are dherta" "And You are Arfian" things like that. Just like what ive told, things change. Shes so damn much close with me now. We used to hanging out together with Cynthia and Irfan. Dherta is powerful and also powerless girl i think. Shes good at love, shes such a drama queen, the smartest one ive ever known. Shes helping me now, to stop my bad habbit to spend money with shopping. Shes good at giving advices too

Tak Apa (Kawan ke Lawan) #Puisi

Ku biasa tak didengar

Beradu diriku sendiri bersama sunyi

Ku biasa tak dihirau

Ku coba meredam kala kalbuku menggebu

Tak apa kawan!

Kutau pertemanan ini sudah rawan

Tunjuk tangan bersalam kesendirian

Hadiahiku kehilangan

Kau keluarkan pedang spekulasi

Bersamanya kau buatku terdegradasi 

Meninggalkan kasta tertinggi

Berlabuh kembali ke divisi

Tak apa kawan!

Mauku jangan ganggu sisa kawanku

Lepas jangkar dari diriku

Romeo Juliet tak akan bersatu

Kuharap kau tenggelam dalam kabut abu

Tak pernah menyapa pagi buta bersamaku

Kupikir

Kupikir, aku tidak akan terlalu cepat mengunjungi

peradaban. aku belum bosan dengan alam

liar,bahkan menikmati keindahannya dan

kehidupan sebagai petualang yang kujalani.

Semakin lama semakin dalam. aku lebih menyukai

pelana kuda daripada mobil, langit yang bertaburan

bintang daripada atap, jalan setapak samar dan

sulit yang berujung tak pasti daripada

jalan raya yang beraspal, dan kedamaian yang

dalam ditengah alam liar daripada ketidakpuasan ditengah kota-kota.

Apakah kamu menyalahkanku karena tinggal

ditempat ini, ditempat yang kurasa merupakan

milikku dan membuatku menyatu dengan dunia di

seputarku? Memang benar, aku merindukan

teman yang cerdas,

Tetapi hanya sedikit yang bisa berbagi tentang hal-

hal yang begitu berarti bagi diriku sehingga aku

belajar untuk puas dengan diriku sendiri. 

sudah cukup bahwa aku dikelilingi oleh keindahan.

Bahkan dari gambaranmu yang sepintas, aku tahu

bahwa aku tidak akan bisa mengatasi rutinitas dan

kebisingan hidup yang terpaksa kamu jalani.

Kupikir, aku tidak akan pernah bisa menjalani

kehidupan yang mapan. 

Aku sudah tahu terlalu banyak

tentang dalamnya kehidupan dan lebih menyukai

apapun dari sebuah antiklimaks.

Teman Karib #Puisi

Teman karibku...

Tingkah polahmu tak seperti dulu

Semarak keluar ego sadimu

Ada apa gerangan denganmu?

Teman karibku...

Tertaut malam aku merindumu

Merangkap sendiri dengan kesendirianku

Tak ada kabar pesan darimu

Terlanjur abadi dalam malamku

Kau yang dulu menyapa

Bersalam pesan bertulis nama

Ku terka-terka dalam pikiran

Kapan kau akan kembali, kawan?

Terbiasa sudah hariku denganmu

Berjuta kata kita penakan bersama

Menggusur seunyinya kesendirian

Namun, kini kau tak kunjung datang

Atau hanya kirimkan sebuah pesan

The Best Promise You Could Ever Break

We are so cliche. We finish eachother's sentences, sometimes I think you're a mind reader.

I cannot count the times in a day we say the words "I love you" yet this countless amount never seems like it's enough. I love you infinity past beyond, because this love really does transcend this universe. Your love for me makes me grow childish-a feeling more amazing than could be described- for while everyone is busy trying to grow up and move on, you bring out the joyful youth in me. You've reminded me what being happy is and have shown me that I've been missing out on happiness for far too long. The first time you told me how you felt - that you loved me - my heart seemed to melt and overflow my ribcage. This was a feeling like no other. People say they get butterflies around "that" someone, that they feel all warm and fuzzy inside and that their heart just melts as it is overcome by such a strong and pure emotion. I doubted that possibility, laughed a bit at how cliche it seemed. I mean of course I'd fantasized about the possibility, but I never thought I could feel that way so literally. When we first started talking, you promised you'd never fall for me or see me as anything more than a friend because I was frustrated with the girls in my life who couldn't just be my friend. I thought I just needed a friend. But what I needed was you.

And darling, we are the best promise you could ever break.

We are so cliche. We fawn over eachother, constantly declaring our love and proclaiming every possible reason why our love is the perfect love. We'd get so deep into these conversations of outpouring affection but then try and pull ourselves out, for fear of being too cliche. Like today, when you said we were "losers and oh so cheesy". I told you that "honey, cheesy is what it's called by the people that don't get to experience it. And as far as I'm concerned, as long as it's real then I love it and shall not frown down with 'cheesiness nonappreciation'" . You said "that's probably the most sensical thing i've ever heard". I smiled.

Because that's what I do when I see you, or hear you or read something you write. I smile. You always give me that instasmile. You are the sunshine in my life when I'm a stormy cloud, so together we create a rainbow. And that will never make us cheesy.

I love you, my sunbow rainshine.

Cynthia's Birthday Surprise!

Yesterday, September 23th was Cynthia's birthday. She finally got her 17 years old. Dan gak segampangnya saya melewatkan momen sekali setaun itu. Yap! Bersama Dherta, Irfan dan Mas Satya kita kasih kejutan buat dia. Dan saya pikir, ini bener-bener unpredictable surprise! Haaha. Kita datang pagi-pagi jam 7, bawa tepung, bubuk kpi, air, dan roti serta kado spesial yang Cynthia gak pernah bayangin sebelumnya.... AYAM! Hahahaha
Ini dia beberapa foto-foto kemarin

Together we took a pict

Early Sunday morning btw

Me, Pasha and Irfan. We just seemed like a daddy

Here for you, sweetheart Cynthia 

And the unpredictable gifts for cynthia

Get your madness!!!

Gave the gift

We Are What We Are

These, what I called FRIENDS of Socials! Haha there was no lesson at that time, and we're socials will never waste that precious time in vanity. So, yeah! We took photos, they are a lot! And here are some photos we took in the free time. 

Aku Ini Apa #Poem

"AKU INI APA"

by @ArfianRv

Teriakanku berpantul pada kaca

Menghantam kembali meredam suara

Tak pernah terpasang kuping mereka

Tuk menerima apa yang ku kata

Aku ini apa?

Apakah hanya raga tanpa jiwa

Terombang-ambing oleh mereka

Hingga tak pernah ku berdaya

Lepas tangan tak bersalaman

Aku hanya bagai sebuah kematian

Tertidur lelap dengan kesunyian

Merampas mulut dan lidah tuk isyaratkan

Aku ini apa?

Ku biasa tak di dengar

Kuatkan teguh tuk tegar

Menahan amarah dengan sabar

Ku tau petir akan terus menyambar

#Dedicated : To a friend of mine. She got bullied by other people in School. And I just felt pity to her.

Fantastic Famous!

Damn! Fantastic Famous, huuu huuuu We're gonna win the competition, fantastic famous, damn, huhuuuu

We Are Famous : Family Of United Socials 

Tak Apa #Poem

Tak Apa

by @ArfianRv

Ku biasa tak didengar

Beradu diriku sendiri bersama sunyi

Ku biasa tak dihirau

Ku coba meredam kala kalbuku menggebu

Tak apa kawan!

Kutau pertemanan ini sudah rawan

Tunjuk tangan bersalam kesendirian

Kau keluarkan pedang spekulasi

Bersamanya kau buatku terdegradasi

Meninggalkan kasta tertinggi

Kembali berlabuh pada divisi

Tak apa kawan!

Mauku jangan ganggu sisa kawanku

Lepas jangkar dari hidupku

Minyak dan Air tak akan bersatu

Kuharap kau tenggelam bersama kabut abu

Dan tak pernah menyapa pagi buta bersamaku

#Dedicated for someone I hate the most

~ Arfian Syahriza

Teman Karib

“Teman Karib”

by @ArfianRV

Teman karibku…
Tingkah polahmu tak seperti dulu
Semarak keluar ego sadismu
Ada apa gerangan denganmu?
Teman karibku…
Tertaut malam aku merindumu
Merangkap sendiri dengan kesendirianku
Tak ada kabar dan pesan darimu
Terlanjur abadi sendiri ini bersama malamku
Kau yang dulu menyapa
Bersalam pesan bertulis nama
Ku terka-terka dalam pikiran
Kapan kau akan datang kawan?
Terbiasa sudah hariku denganmu
Berjuta kata kita isyaratkan bersama
Menggusur sunyinya kesendirian
Namun, kini kau tak pernah datang
Atau hanya kirimkan sebuah pesan
Kau hadiahiku sebuah kesendirian

Finally Done

Hey all!! I'd like to share and tell you about an exhausting story last week. And well, read carefully ;)

Last week was a very very busy week ever!! How could I say that? Yes!! Because, there was a competition in my school, "English Challenge" exactly. A competition for junior high school where Me and the member of English Club in my school became the committee. And for that reason, the committee have made me so tired!

You know what? I have the worse. In the end of February I became the K.O of English week (an english competition for intern) for a week! That was really really awesome, crazy, wild, exhausting, silly and Oh My Goddamn I wanted to end it soon. But it's okay, all was done! :)

Naah, why I'm happy and glad? Yes of course because it's done already. But NO, I have some reason for that.
1. Become the committee have took my time to play, study
2. Become the K.O have made me tired and worked perfectly hard
3. I must handle all activity in english week
4. I can't sleep in night and didn't focus in study in the school
5. I went home very very late, at evening exactly

Last Sunday in March, 11 2012 The English Challenge has been inaugurated done by the committee with the champions are :
The First Winner is SMP 1 Madiun, The Second Winner is SMP 2 Madiun.

Conclusion : I've learnt many stuffs, I got some new experience in leadership, I got many stories, sweet and bitter stories and experience who will teach me and make me be better in future. Thanks!! :)

Here are some photos..

 Left : Me and Anissa'ul | Right : The Queen Levina and Me

Another photo w/ Anissa'ul. We were in the quarantine room

With the K.O of News Casting, Ayu 

Teenage Life

Teenagers! Yeaah, I`m in that phase. Now I`m 16 years old and will be 17 on the next october. I`m studying in the high school for 3 years of course. And those years will be one of my treasures, I wish. I mean, it's gonna be remembered all time. There are many ways to make it beautiful and memorable. I think, other persons think so. They won't waste their precious time commonly.

Okay, lemme explain about that! There are 3 parts on teen's life. LOVE, EDUCATION, and DREAMS! Every teens have experience in each part and I have the same. I have love, I have education, and I have dreams. Those start to be more interesting in the HIGH SCHOOL!

LOVE :
Based on my observation for some my friends in High School 2 Madiun, they are falling in love, found their love, and in the courtship. Yeaa that's a common situation in teens. A boy says that he loves her. He wants to be her everything. And the girls says "yes, I want to be your everything" well done, they found love. Based on my opinion, when they found love, some of them have a wise reason and a usual reason. For the wise reason, they wish that her/his sweetheart will able to makes for a better mark, better quality in study and some other good results. So, the get the benefits of courtship. And the for the usual reason, may be they want to get more experiences, they want to feel a kiss or something like that, they just fall in love, monkey love! I think usual reason is a majority. But no problem, it's okay. We are teens we deserve for that!

EDUCATION :
Still based on my observation, education is very very important for us. I was watching and asking for some of my friends too (different with love) they believe that high school is the correct time to study hard, so we can get the best marks and accept at the favorite university. I do agree that study hard will gives us a best mark, but, hmm not at all, lucky is the most decisive part! But okay, we are students and our duty is study. Good Education for teen is very useful. They have good education means they have bright future. They will able to compete with the others.

DREAMS :
Yeaaaaa!! What's this? This is teenagers dreams!!! Of course, everyone has their own dream. Something that they wanna be in the future. But, let's leave about everyone, I'll talk about teen's dreams which are freaky awesome. Dream helps the teens to live their life, especially for a spirit to study. If there's a teen who has a dream to become a doctor, that teen will do anything to make it comes true. Though the path to get it is not easy, they must struggle! Overall, believe in yourself. If you can dream it, you can do it!

Okay, those all about teen's life. LOVE, EDUCATION and DREAMS. I'm pretty sure, there's no teen in this world who doesn't have those parts. How about me? Myself as teen is usual. I have love, education and dreams. Just for now, I'm trying to find my monkey love or may be true love for someday, haha. Education is important too. Everyday I study to get the best education. I want to make my parents, friends proud of me. And I have a friend, he is dude. He is the reason I want to study hard because, yeaa we're competing for a good mark. STAN/STIS are my dreams, but a success life is the most beautiful dream. In this phase too, I'll make a decision what something that I wanna be. I must determine that ways!

The Best Phase of Teenagers

SMA, ya masa yang paling disukai anak muda. Di masa inilah mereka akan mulai menemukan jati diri dan sejatinya. Masa ini pula yang akan menentukan masa depan dan akan menjadi apa mereka di masa depan.

Tapi... meski masa ini adalah penentu masa depan kita nanti seperti apa, tapi gak baik dan gak berkesan juga kalau di masa ini kita cuma belajar mulu. SMA tak akan pernah terulang untuk kedua kalinya, sebab itu, buatlah masa ini menjadi berkesan. CINTA!

Bubuhkan setitik cinta pada masa ini. Cinta akan membuatnya semakin berkesan dan berwarna. Secupu apapun, serajin apapun, sepintar apapun kamu kalau gak kasih bubuh cinta pada SMA, sama aja NOL!

CINTA itu ada yang pahit dan manis, a bitter sweet of love. Tapi, keduanya itulah yang juga akan membuatmu lebih baik di masa depan dalam hal asmara.
Kalo aku nih, yaaaaaap! SMA aku SINGLE, tapi SINGLE ku single happy. Sebenernya bukan aku tidak membubuhkan cinta, tapi cintaku yang SMA ini sedang sangat pahit. Jadi, daripada aku terus menerus dalam kepahitan cinta ini, it's gonna be better kalau move on.

Sahabat dan Teman! Aku masih punya mereka. Mereka selalu membuatku bahagia, tertawa dan ceria. Entah, setiap kegiatan yang aku lakukan bersama mereka selalu menyenangkan dan punya cerita tersendiri. And it such a gift for me :)

Intinya ni yaa, Jangan buat masa SMA-mu suram atau tidak berkesan atau tidak berwarna. SMA tak akan pernah terulang untuk kedua kalianya, bro

 

That photo shows you, ehmm my togetherness with my lovely 9C. Yaah, that's right. It's been almost a year I don't get that togetherness anymore. We had separated because we are studying in the different school now. For high school of course.

But, too much memories in my mind about them. Though it's almost a year, I can still feel and see the rush, the happiness, the cheerfulness and many others about that class. Include, I can see the people inside. 9C is too precious for me. At that place, I found love, I found a friendship, I found experiences, I found new stories and I found a new principle for me.

The shadow of togetherness still haunts my mind, my brain and my life. Yes, I love that place so fucking much. I love the people inside. I love all the activity we did at that time. 9C is the most famous class in my school. Too many stars inside there :)

The sense of the togetherness can still be felt, seen and fought! 

Admiring You!

You have a sharp sight. You're cute at thinking. You are a serious person. I love the way you catch an opportunity in the narrowness. You have much knowledge and You're a good person. You are good at games. You are a simple person, though your parents are rich. You are a humble person. But, you are a shabby person too. You like to disturb your friends in the seriousness. Hmm, You are not only dreaming, but also doing. You are not silent, you give an opinion. You don't like to cheat and you want to do all by yourself, and it's good because you have a wise and good principle. You are a selfish person but not at all. You love your family so much. I don't know how to write longer about you. You are too difficult to be described! But, be my friend forever, mate. I love to be your friend. I don't listen the haters, I don't listen people who mock us. Because I have a principle too. Wish, God will gives a success way for us to our future.