Rindu dan Waktu

waktu membawaku berlari

begitu cepat,

menarik paksa tubuhku yang telah ringkih

memaksaku untuk tetap, menatap kedepan sembari

dan menghela nafas berat..

masa lalu…

ingin aku menolehnya walau untuk sebentar saja sekedar untukku

menghilangkan dahaga kerinduanku, akan masa - masa indah saat aku

masih memiliki cinta

saat ini sepertinya aku telah mati, rasaku hilang entah kemana…

duka…

bahagia…

apapun namanya, semua bagiku sama tak ada lagi indah

yang dulu selalu membuatku tersenyum kini semua pecah,

berhamburan dan sirna ditelan linangan air mata

andainya aku mampu, aku ingin kembali kemasa itu, dimana ada senyum dan tawa

Saat ini aku ingin rasaku kembali

agar aku merasa hidup lagi,

aku ingin hatiku utuh lagi sebagai mana dulu sebelum aku mengenal cinta.

Waktu itu gratis, tapi tak ternilai.

Tak dapat memilikinya tapi dapat menggunakanya,

Tak dapat menyimpannya tapi dapat menghabiskannya.

I Want To Love, Love YOU!

Everyday I tell myself that your not longer a big part of me. Sometimes I really believe it, sometimes I actually think that you don't mean a god damn thing to me. Every time that thought appears I feel relieved, I feel less vulnerable, it feels like you can't affect me anymore.

I've repeated this thought so many times that I've almost made it true. At the same time it makes me so freaking scared of moving forward, cause what happens when you stop loving someone? What happens when you someday wake up and realize that this person actually doesn't mean anything to you? How can you manage to go from 1000 to 0. Cause that day will eventually come. The only thing you have left is the beautiful memories that you hopefully will carry with you your whole life. But I'm so afraid of that day coming, because I don't want it to. I don't want it to happen because I want to love. Love you.

Love,
Arf

Things Are Different Now

Things are different now. No other eyes are as captivating. No other smile is as contagious.
No one else’s words are as reassuring. No other arms are as comforting. I don’t long to hear any other voice on the other side of the phone. I don’t get butterflies at the thought of anyone else. Things are different now. When another walks by, I no longer give a second look. It’s like no one else exists; no one but you. They say that “love is blind;” and if anything, I’m only blind to everyone else. No one can measure up to you. They always fall short. Things are different now. Seeing through the eyes of love is like seeing under a microscope. I see things in you that I could never see in others, with my old eyes naked of love. Each little quirk, story, and moment with you are like the cells that make you who you are to me. The more I know you, discover things about you, the deeper I fall, captivated by the simplistic nature of who you are. It’s as though I’ve discovered something for the very first time, and now that I know of its existence I can’t imagine a world without. Things are different now. As I learn about you, I am also learning about myself. I’ve never felt like I quite belonged in this world until now. Until I had someone to walk beside me, encourage me, dream with me. Things are different now. I smile at the thought of you. I cry at the thought of being away from you. I fear, always have and always will, but with you it’s a different fear. It isn’t so much a fear of you causing harm, but a fear of losing you to the unknown. Things are different now. I let my guard down. Give you a straight shot to my heart and all that I am. I trust you. Something that is not easy for me to do. Things are different now. I love this difference: the joy, the anxiousness, and the longing. I hate this difference: the unknown, the risks, and the doubt. Things are different now. Please, be careful. I never thought this would happen. I had given up hope. But here you are…my hope in love, in true happiness, in the future. Things are different now. Thank you.

It Could Be All Yours #Writing

I drink coffee like water and I still never know what to say. 

I still don't know how to get out of bed half the time. 

It's not pretty, or endearing. 

I whisper your secrets, I am still looking to be saved, sometimes I am so weak, Sometimes I am so strong. Here you go, I'll give you every-thing for one more chance. 

My heart is ugly, but it could be all yours

Cinta Yang Tak Mungkin - Elyzia

Ku pejamkan mata ini

Ku tertidur tanpa lelap

Tapi ku bermimpi kau jadi milikku

Suaramu tetap bernyanyi

Walau sadar ku kian tak ada

Namun ku bahagia lagumu milikku

Indah senyumanmu takkan bisa pudar

Makin indah di hatiku

Walau ku sadari cinta yang tak mungkin jadi

Apapun yang kau ciptakan

Ku akan berjuang dapatkan

Jika kau bahagia aku semakin bahagia

Indahnya wajahmu takkan pernah sirna

Makin terang di hatiku

Walau ku sadari cinta yang tak mungkin jadi

Indah senyumanmu takkan bisa pudar

Makin indah di hatiku

Walau ku sadari itu cinta yang tak mungkin jadi

Meski ku tak bisa memiliki dirimu

Takkan ku berpaling pergi (berpaling pergi)

Makin ku mencintai ku lepas kau kekasih

Biar terbang tinggi cinta yang tak mungkin

Terbang tinggi

Lirik Perahu Kertas - Maudy Ayunda

Perahu kertasku kan melaju

Membawa surat cinta bagimu

Kata-kata yang sedikit gila

Tapi ini adanya

Perahu kertas mengingatkanku

Betapa ajaibnya hidup ini

Mencari-cari tambatan hati

Kau sahabatku sendiri

Hidupkan lagi mimpi-mimpi

(cinta-cinta) cita-cita

Yang lama ku pendam sendiri

Berdua ku bisa percaya

Reff:

Ku bahagia kau telah terlahir di dunia

Dan kau ada di antara milyaran manusia

Dan ku bisa dengan radarku menemukanmu

Tiada lagi yang mampu berdiri halangi rasaku

Cintaku padamu…

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own. I never thought I'd need you there when I cry and the days feel like years when I'm alone and the bed where you lie is made up on your side. When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone... the pieces of my heart are missing you. When you're gone... the face I came to know is missing too. When you're gone... all the words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok, I miss you.
I've never felt this way before. Everything that I do reminds me of you and the clothes you left
they lie on my floor and they smell just like you. I love the things that you do.
We were made for each other, out here forever. I know we were. All I ever wanted was for you to know. Everything I do I give my heart and soul. I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me.

Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land

I knew the pathway like the back of my hand

I felt the earth beneath my feet

Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I’m getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you’re gonna let me in

I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree

I felt the branches of it looking at me

Is this the place we used to love?

Is this the place that I’ve been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I’m getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you’re gonna let me in

I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don’t we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don’t we go

Somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don’t we go

Somewhere only we know?

Alasan #Poem

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Sepi ini yang kurasa

Tak terabaikan atau bersalaman

Detak jam seolah menghantui

Menngolok aku yang seorang diri

Iri ku melihat mereka luapkan rindu bersama

Berbagi canda dan tawa di langit senja

Tatkala senja berganti malam

Aku masih sendiri dan terdiam

Sehati tapi tak sepikiran

Aku ingin bersama orang yang aku inginkan

Salah dan terhina

Menyadari hanya karena aku kesepian

Tapi aku punya alasan!

Cukup kau tahu, aku tak mau menyiakan

Atau menyakiti hati yang telah kau isyaratkan

~ Arfian Syahriza

Somewhere Only We Know Cover by Max Schneider and Liz

Hey! What you up to guys today?! Feel bored huh? Here check an awesome cover video by Max Schneider and Liz. Original song by Keane. Produced by Kurt Schneider.. Here the video. Check them out!! I bet you're gonna love it (:

Epic Pics!

Somebody #Poem

I miss somebody to love. Somebody to hug. 

Somebody to kiss. Somebody that I would hold the hands tightly. 

I miss somebody to laugh together. Somebody who reminds me time to eat. 

Somebody I can share with. 

I miss somebody who texts me in every morning just for saying "Have a good day!" or "Good morning, a new world has began!". 

I miss somebody who places the head in my chest.

I miss somebody, somebody who always make me happy through out the days. 

I miss somebody who has a shine star in the dark sky

Somebody who won't say goodbye

Somebody who will stay alive with me for all time

No matter sad, happy, poor or rich

I miss somebody even though I haven't found it yet

I already miss that somebody

~ Arfian Syahriza

Somebody to live with

That Boy

I'm that boy who wake up each morning thinking, this is the day. I'm that boy who hates going to sleep alone. I'm that boy who doubts himself. I'm that boy who thinks no one can love him. I'm that boy who still though believes in true love. I'm that boy who's a hopeless romantic. I'm that boy who overanalyze all the little signs. I'm that boy who smile when he sees your name pop up on the phone. I'm that boy who just wants to hold your hand. I'm that boy who will text you out of the blue just to let you know how much I love you. I'm that boy who will kiss you when you ramble on. I'm that boy who will laugh when you laugh. I'm that boy who will always be there for you. I'm that boy who misses you. and even though I haven't found you yet. I still miss you. I'm me.

I’m dreaming of the day I get to meet the girl of my life. dreaming of the feelings she will awake within me, how it will feel to just look at her knowing that she is only mine & I only her. knowing that whenever I want to I can just walk up to her & give her a kiss because she will be all mine. to hold, to love & to cherish.
I’m dreaming of the day I can sneak up in the morning to cook her breakfast & wake her up with a kiss & a smile. introduce her to my friends, we’ll drink some beers at my place before going out in the night surrounded by friends, music, lights & her. walk home at dawn with her, laughing & holding hands.
I’m dreaming of the day I can tell my mom & dad to put another plate on the table, to introduce her to my whole family & see their smiles. getting to meet her parents, her friends & realizing that she’s making me a part of her life. I’m dreaming of the day I can feel safe wherever I am because I know she is out there somewhere loving me just as much as I love her. I’m dreaming of the day I can say “I love you”
I’m waiting for the day I will see you & know my dreams have come true. I'm dreaming I want to be next to you, be able to hug you, share everything with you, spend my time with you and be happy with you...


~ Arfian Syahriza

Angry Bird Tragedy

Okay, hay guys! Now I`m coming with a little anger!!! Idk, I just feel so angry nowadays. But here, I won't write about my anger, but I will write about a tragedy! But WAITTTT!!! Don't think this is flood, earthquake or something like that.. This is a sweet tragedy, I guess :)

Yesterday (friday, 17th of February) after school, all students were instructed to clean the classroom. Well it means, my class too. We were cleaning up the class. Sweeping, dusting, set the tables, etc. Yeaaaa, it was very exhausting. But, the result was awesome, the class became CLEAN at every sides :)) really this is a rare view.

After that, some students decided to went home, but some others took a rest by drank and ate at canteen. But not with me, I sat in front of my class looked on my phone, didn't do anything, haha suddenly..
Aulia a.k.a Uli, XE Student came to my class and gimme a key with angry bird keychains! Wow, I was surprised!! I asked her, "Whose key?" but she left me and I kept that key in my pocket.

Before that, there were Irfan, Iqbal and Wisnu were talking in the dark alley in front of my class. Suddenly, I heard their voices "Digowo arfian kae hlo neng kelas" ("brought by arfian in his class") and it sounded very noisy and crowded!! Not only their voices, I heard some girls were screaming too.. Then I went out my class

And you know what.......!!!!! There was 26 walked come to me, and I did the same. walked to her. She asked me her key, that stolen by Uli because Uli wanted she meets me and make some silliness. My Lord, I never guess that before!! She was so cute, so beauty, she's my Idol :) hahaha and you know what, I wanted to touch her hand, but I cancelled to do that :x
At that time too, I heard a noisy voices from other students in the dark alley. Then se went away after received her key, and me too, went back to class with a smile upon my face :)

Sing a Song :)

Heey heey, let's having fun, sing a beauty song here :) An Old song from Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You

If I should stay,

I would only be in your way.

So I'll go, but I know

I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way.

And I will always love you.

I will always love you.

You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memories

that is all I'm taking with me.

So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.

We both know I'm not what you, you need.

And I will always love you.

I will always love you.

(Instrumental solo)

I hope life treats you kind

And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.

And I wish to you, joy and happiness.

But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.

I will always love you.

I will always love you.

I will always love you.

I will always love you.

I, I will always love you.

You, darling, I love you.

Ooh, I'll always, I'll always love you.

10710 [ RZARV ]

Tepat pukul 0.00 WIB , tadi malam , aku dan erza tepat 4 bulan pacaran . Dan selama 4 bulan menjalin hubungan indah ini , melewati semuanya bersama . Suka duka kita lewati bersama :)
Sayaang , tak kuduga 1/3 taun sudah kita pacaran , dan di bulan ke 4 ini aku pasti akan semakin cinta , semakin sayang , semakin perhatian sama kamu setiap harinya :)

Dan aku berdoa kepada Tuhan , semoga Hubungan ini bisa berjalan lama , dan di depan , kita semakin serasi , semakin cocok , dan dijauhkan halangan / rintangan / masalah . Serta aku berharap kita bisa langgeng sayang , bisa tentram dan bahagia tanpa masalah , amin amin

I'm yours n you're mine
Still n always love u

Aku sayang banget sama kamu cha , I LOVE U SO MUCH , Muuuuaaacccchhh :)

RZARV

Dua sejoli
Menjalin cinta
Cinta bersemi dari SMP
Arfi dan Erza
Mengikat janji
Janjit Setia , Setia Abadi

Ohh Arfi ...
Ohh Erza ...
Cintamu abadai ..

Wahai Arfi , Duhai Erza
Tiada Petaka , Merenggut kasihmu

10610

Hayhay hay bloggie ..
lama juga gua udah gak ngeblog . hehe
habis banyak bgt jadwal gua . haha biasa artis dadakan , sdkit sdkit jumpa fans , wartawan .. [najong alay] :p

ehmm gue kembali dari UAS .. hehe
UAS selesai esok , tapi gua santai aja ? haha gpp dah semoga dengan aji aji nyontek n ngerpek gua kagak ada yang remidi :) amin amin ..

well guys, here i will tell you about yesterday .. :)
My day , My love day , My vicharvi day
well kemarin adalah 3 bulan jadian gua sama my erza . kali ini 3 bulan 10610 jatoh di hari kamis , tanggal 10 bulan juni tahun 2010 saat sekolah sekolah (trmasuk sekolah gua) ada UAS 2 .
kita tetep gamau lewatin our special day itu , dan tetep merayakan n seneng :) hehe

oia , setiap ganti bulan , selalu ada even atau ehmm bisa dibilang acara acara aneh antara my slef sama her self . n kali ini di 3 bulan kita mau , kita TUKERAN FOTO MASA KECIL . hehe
ide yang konyol dari gua .

Gua pengen banget lihat n punya foto masa kecil my erza :0 hehe makanya pas di 3 bulan kita ngadain ini acara . hehehe
kita tukeran waktu pulang sekolah di kantin , n waktu tukeran di guyu sama anak anak n guru guru [ bu haryani , bu anik , bu reni ] heheh

dan do you know ? bayinya erza luccccccuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu buangett , gendud , imutimut n pengen banget gua gendong dia . haha beda sama sekarang . yang sama cuma bentuk bibir , sama mata yang gede :0 heheeh

n this is fotonya :) ..................

nie waktu dia baby , lucu banget . haha gendud

n ini waktu dia TK , bibir , matanya mirip sama sekrang
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Well guys , ini dia sekarang , tumbuh menjadi gadis remaja yang cantik :)

My Erza Tania Dewanti :)

Cantik kan ? hahaha

Happy a month :)

hue hue hue
gue pagi ini bersorak horaayy .. (ahay lebay deh)
ehmm , today i feel so happy .. You know why ? yes that's right
today is April 10 2010 .. hehehe . ehmm 1 bulanan gue sama yayangku :P
ehm , dari dulu kita tunggu saat ini , tapi lama banget n akhirnya tiba ..

but , 1 bulan kita isi dengan hukuman kita jalanin yang waktu itu gue sama erza taruhan MU vs Bayern .. dan ternyata bayern (aku) kalah , n MU juga gak masuk Semi final , so sama sama kena hukuman . heheheh
yappzz , hukumannya minta tanda tangan 5 anak aksel A , 1 tanda tangan guru n 1 tanda tangan kita , hehehe

jadi pulang sekolah tadi gue sama dia mintain tanda tangan . kwkwkw
konyol dah , sampe dikira orang aku sama dia orang gila . hahaha
ya biasalah , emang pacaran kita ini gak kita isi dengan hal hal romantis romantisan n segala yang sok manis di depan pacar . Kita lebih suka petualangan n suka tantangan . hehe
jadi pacaran gue ma dia isi dengan taruhan , petualngan dll . heheh

Oiaa
dulu gue nembak dia seharusnya pulang sekolah tanggal 10 3 10
tapi setelah bertemu dia langsung aku tak berkutik n gak ngmong apa apa selain basa basi .
Jadi gajadi deh , akhirnya gue pulang
pas sampai rumah , gue tidur n bangun itu udah jam 6 sore mana hujan deres n ada gledek
gue disitu sms erza yang isinya gue suka n cinta sama dia .
hahaha dan selanjutnya ada deghh :P

I hope , setelah 1 bulan ini aku sama dia makin cinta n sayang . Semoga langgeng dan bahagia gak ada masalah ^^ amin
Love U cha :)

I'm yours n you're mine :)
Still n always love u cha :)