And Then You Came

They say, the best people come in your life when you least expect it. I was depressed and my heart ached, and then you came. You taught me how to love and how important God was.

You had the answers to all my questions. I miss the way you told me bedtime stories. The hours we've spend texting about the most random things. I didn't even notice how I fell in love with you. With every part of you. I fell in love with your hair, your brown eyes and your crooked smile.

I got used to you, used to everything. Everyone said I changed. In only three months. No one could ever do what you did and I love you for that.

I love you so bad that I can't think of you without crying. It's like my heart is exploding and screaming your name. Over and over again.

I love you so much that I would donate my kidney to you. Because a life without you is no love. Without you, my dearest,my love...there's no me.

You're the brightest of all. The sweetest of all. And still i'm waiting, craving for the moment you ask me to marry you. I guess that's all I ever want. Marry you, be my wife forever, share the same life, same bed, same house. To share with you is all I ever want to do. But even if the day won't come, and you find love in someone else... please know that you're the bluest sky.

Maybe God has other plans for both of us. Still I pray, each day, for us to get together someday.

Not so sure what love is

Sometimes I am not sure what love is. Sometimes I would find myself asking is this how love is suppose to feel?

There used to be days I was really sure what it is. Moment of first love that innocent fluttering feeling which comes out and lives within me with excitement made me confident this was probably was love was. Fresh and new and full of excitement. Then in the midst of smiles and laughter, tears came along..with anger and pain. What seem to me like it was everlasting love, flew out of the window in just a blink of an eye. Questions began to rise, isn't love suppose to be everlasting? or is it just a spur of the moment thing? Can you really lose love with time?

Second and third relationships ended up the same way. Things such as 'I felt love in the beginning, but somehow I lost it with you... you'd be better off with another better girl' became a common quote. Innocent image of love gets lost in the process. All you'd recall is just how 'love' doesn't last and that well maybe you just don't know what exactly love is.

Funny, how easy it is sometimes to forget all those happy moments you share with a person that you've build together for a period of time in just a blink of an eye... then later on only recall the pain which acts as the base for the defensive mechanism you unknowingly build around you. Sometimes I guess maybe I chose not to believe in love so I don't get hurt again.

I'm back again on the track but I am not sure what I am feeling is really love, or just a longing to be with someone, since I've seem to have a misconception. The image of love began to be blurry. What exactly it is begins to be uncertain. I doubt almost everything and just things flow, but I can't really feel like I am all there.

In the end I am still not sure.

Kisah Cintaku

Di malam yang sesunyi ini
Aku sendiri
Tiada yang menemani
Akhirnya kini kusadari
Dia telah pergi
Tinggalkan diriku

Adakah semua kan terulang
Kisah cintaku yang seperti dulu
(mungkinkah terulang lagi)

Hanya dirimu yang kucinta dan kukenang
Di dalam hatiku (di dalam hatiku)
Takkan pernah hilang (takkan pernah hilang)
Bayangan dirimu untuk selamanya (selamanya)

Mengapa terjadi (tlah terjadi)
Kepada dirimu (di dirimu)
Aku tak percaya kau telah tiada

Haruskah ku pergi tinggalkan dunia
Agar aku dapat berjumpa denganmu

Adakah semua kan terulang
Kisah cintaku yang seperti dulu
(mungkinkah terulang lagi)

Hanya dirimu yang kucinta dan kukenang
Di dalam hatiku (di dalam hatiku)
Takkan pernah hilang (takkan pernah hilang)
Bayangan dirimu untuk selamanya (selamanya)

by : Peterpan

Tak Mampu #Puisi

Tatapan kosong tak berbayang

Tak mampu memvisualisasi dalam tenang

Tenggelam dalam dimensi tak bersudut

Memadamkan api lalu surut

Ku coba menulis sebuah puisi

Tertanam banyak visi dalam isi

Ku coba sampaikan sebuah makna

Memecah keraguan tuk isyaratkan cinta

Cinta yang tenggelam..!!

Dalam malam aku terpejam, lalu diam

Menatap hina pada bayang

Dan aku tak akan pernah bisa terbang

Melintasi tujuh pintu kayang

Kini ku tertunduk tak pernah terbangun

Tuk ucapkan cinta dalam relung

Ruang rindu tak akan pernah kosong

Terisi oleh rindumu yang bohong

'So Sick' - Sam Tsui ft Max Schneider (Cover)

Guys! You gotta check this video out! It is incredibly AW-SOME!! A cover video by Sam Tsui ft Max Schneider. They covered So Sick original song by Ne Yo. And yes, try to listen it well and apply it with your heart today, lol 

Things Are Different Now

Things are different now. No other eyes are as captivating. No other smile is as contagious.
No one else’s words are as reassuring. No other arms are as comforting. I don’t long to hear any other voice on the other side of the phone. I don’t get butterflies at the thought of anyone else. Things are different now. When another walks by, I no longer give a second look. It’s like no one else exists; no one but you. They say that “love is blind;” and if anything, I’m only blind to everyone else. No one can measure up to you. They always fall short. Things are different now. Seeing through the eyes of love is like seeing under a microscope. I see things in you that I could never see in others, with my old eyes naked of love. Each little quirk, story, and moment with you are like the cells that make you who you are to me. The more I know you, discover things about you, the deeper I fall, captivated by the simplistic nature of who you are. It’s as though I’ve discovered something for the very first time, and now that I know of its existence I can’t imagine a world without. Things are different now. As I learn about you, I am also learning about myself. I’ve never felt like I quite belonged in this world until now. Until I had someone to walk beside me, encourage me, dream with me. Things are different now. I smile at the thought of you. I cry at the thought of being away from you. I fear, always have and always will, but with you it’s a different fear. It isn’t so much a fear of you causing harm, but a fear of losing you to the unknown. Things are different now. I let my guard down. Give you a straight shot to my heart and all that I am. I trust you. Something that is not easy for me to do. Things are different now. I love this difference: the joy, the anxiousness, and the longing. I hate this difference: the unknown, the risks, and the doubt. Things are different now. Please, be careful. I never thought this would happen. I had given up hope. But here you are…my hope in love, in true happiness, in the future. Things are different now. Thank you.

Funny Things #Poem

it just happened one night

she just walked into my life

the details are fuzzy

a combination of alcohol and tiredness

but she was there, on the street

or rather on her lawn

and it was like she was calling my name

but i didn't know it,

not yet anyway

everything about her draws me in,

her pale green eyes that light up when she smiles

her voice, her arms, her every move.

and that smile that knocks out my fears

everything about her gives me comfort

and falling into her web was out of my control

it was inevitable

attraction is a funny thing that way

no matter how wrong it might be

it clouds your mind, it takes over

and the next thing you know

you're caught

but the worst part is you don't even care

you can pretend to struggle,

pretend to be weak

but the truth is you want to be there

limbs tied down, heart pounding

refusing to move

wanting nothing more than to be trapped there

to be unable to break the spell

and you could care less

that's the way it is with her

i get stuck in her essence

and not a single part of me wants to pull away

i'm perfectly content with being devoured

besides, attempting to resist is pointless,

why try and avoid something that great.

something that makes it hard to speak

something that makes you unable to think

and blush whenever it crosses your mind

so, regardless of how wrong it might be

i think i'm just going to soak it in

i'm going to lay with my head on her shoulder

while she runs her fingers through my hand

and i'm going to listen to the sound of her heart.

because i can't imagine life without that sound anymore.

its embedded in my brain, and i refuse to let it go.

and i'm okay with that.

its not something i'm going to regret

and its not something i'm willing to give up.

Two Drifters

I never knew I could love someone that much. It wasn’t attraction at first sight, it didn’t develop gradually, it seemed to be in me all along and only know I’ve come to understand the signs. For years you have been sailing near me and all this time no butterflies and no heart beats exploding. Just a warm content feeling when I see you and a notion of being exactly where I’m supposed to be when you smile. The sea can be rough and heavy but as long as I see your sails I know I’m safe.

Over the years I’ve noticed all your flaws: you’re annoyingly stubborn to the point of obstinate, you can be awfully self-righteous and sometimes you’re just plain corny. But you’re also the kindest girl on earth, so affectionate and when you laugh you sound like a little girl caught playing a prank. When you’re away, no matter for how long, I know I’m only half of what I can be when I’m with you. I can feel your part missing and the void does not stop throbbing until you’re back.

We have a mutual silent agreement, stirring our courses slowly to the point where we’re finally going to meet. Until then we live our lives a few feet away from each other, testing new waters and sometimes we even loose each other. But the wind always blows our boats back in sight until one day we find common ground and stop drifting.

I love that you’re my best friend and I can’t wait for the time when sailing is over. In the end it’s just going to be you and me.

I Hope I Can Trust You

Am I a horrible person?

I was happy with our relationship before because I knew you liked me more than I liked you. I had the power. I was grateful for the fact that if you changed your mind and wanted to back out, I would not be crushed like I have been in the past. I knew that I could be adored by you without even having to try. I liked you because of the attention you gave me, and the lack of effort I had to make. It was so easy.

But petty weeks turned into great months and I found that I have fallen for you. I love your crazy hair. I love your effortless optimism. I love how you are so self-assured, but also the least cocky person I know. I love that you trust me with your heart, even though it has been tossed aside in the past. I wish it was still so easy.

I pray to god that you are a better person than I am. I hope that you don't realize that I relinquished all my power to you. You now have that sovereignty that I was so fond of. You have the potential to break me, and I have never been so fucking terrified. I have been broken before so please please please be more responsible and kind with my heart than I was with yours.

It doesn't have to be this power struggle. It's like that one trust game at camp where everyone would stand in a circle. Then, slowly, we would all sit on the person behind us so that the entire circle was supported by ourselves. Neither of us need the power. There is no supremacy when we both throw in our hearts and our trust.

I know you trusted me, even when you shouldn't have. I hope I can trust you, even though I know I already should.

It Could Be All Yours #Writing

I drink coffee like water and I still never know what to say. 

I still don't know how to get out of bed half the time. 

It's not pretty, or endearing. 

I whisper your secrets, I am still looking to be saved, sometimes I am so weak, Sometimes I am so strong. Here you go, I'll give you every-thing for one more chance. 

My heart is ugly, but it could be all yours

Lirik Perahu Kertas - Maudy Ayunda

Perahu kertasku kan melaju

Membawa surat cinta bagimu

Kata-kata yang sedikit gila

Tapi ini adanya

Perahu kertas mengingatkanku

Betapa ajaibnya hidup ini

Mencari-cari tambatan hati

Kau sahabatku sendiri

Hidupkan lagi mimpi-mimpi

(cinta-cinta) cita-cita

Yang lama ku pendam sendiri

Berdua ku bisa percaya

Reff:

Ku bahagia kau telah terlahir di dunia

Dan kau ada di antara milyaran manusia

Dan ku bisa dengan radarku menemukanmu

Tiada lagi yang mampu berdiri halangi rasaku

Cintaku padamu…

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own. I never thought I'd need you there when I cry and the days feel like years when I'm alone and the bed where you lie is made up on your side. When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone... the pieces of my heart are missing you. When you're gone... the face I came to know is missing too. When you're gone... all the words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok, I miss you.
I've never felt this way before. Everything that I do reminds me of you and the clothes you left
they lie on my floor and they smell just like you. I love the things that you do.
We were made for each other, out here forever. I know we were. All I ever wanted was for you to know. Everything I do I give my heart and soul. I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me.

Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land

I knew the pathway like the back of my hand

I felt the earth beneath my feet

Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I’m getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you’re gonna let me in

I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree

I felt the branches of it looking at me

Is this the place we used to love?

Is this the place that I’ve been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I’m getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you’re gonna let me in

I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don’t we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don’t we go

Somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don’t we go

Somewhere only we know?

I Will Fly

You know all the things I've said

You know all the things that we have done

And things I gave to you

There's a chance for me to say

How precious you are in my life

And you know that it's true

To be with you is all that I need

Cause with you, my life seems brighter and these are all the things

I wanna say...

I will fly into your arms

And be with you

Till the end of time

Why are you so far away

You know it's very hard for me

To get myself close to you

You're the reason why I stay

You're the one who cannot believe

Our Love will never end

Is it only in my dream?

You're the one who cannot see this

How could you be so blind?

I wanna get myself close to you

Alasan #Poem

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Sepi ini yang kurasa

Tak terabaikan atau bersalaman

Detak jam seolah menghantui

Menngolok aku yang seorang diri

Iri ku melihat mereka luapkan rindu bersama

Berbagi canda dan tawa di langit senja

Tatkala senja berganti malam

Aku masih sendiri dan terdiam

Sehati tapi tak sepikiran

Aku ingin bersama orang yang aku inginkan

Salah dan terhina

Menyadari hanya karena aku kesepian

Tapi aku punya alasan!

Cukup kau tahu, aku tak mau menyiakan

Atau menyakiti hati yang telah kau isyaratkan

~ Arfian Syahriza

Somewhere Only We Know Cover by Max Schneider and Liz

Hey! What you up to guys today?! Feel bored huh? Here check an awesome cover video by Max Schneider and Liz. Original song by Keane. Produced by Kurt Schneider.. Here the video. Check them out!! I bet you're gonna love it (:

Epic Pics!

Somebody #Poem

I miss somebody to love. Somebody to hug. 

Somebody to kiss. Somebody that I would hold the hands tightly. 

I miss somebody to laugh together. Somebody who reminds me time to eat. 

Somebody I can share with. 

I miss somebody who texts me in every morning just for saying "Have a good day!" or "Good morning, a new world has began!". 

I miss somebody who places the head in my chest.

I miss somebody, somebody who always make me happy through out the days. 

I miss somebody who has a shine star in the dark sky

Somebody who won't say goodbye

Somebody who will stay alive with me for all time

No matter sad, happy, poor or rich

I miss somebody even though I haven't found it yet

I already miss that somebody

~ Arfian Syahriza

Somebody to live with

That Boy

I'm that boy who wake up each morning thinking, this is the day. I'm that boy who hates going to sleep alone. I'm that boy who doubts himself. I'm that boy who thinks no one can love him. I'm that boy who still though believes in true love. I'm that boy who's a hopeless romantic. I'm that boy who overanalyze all the little signs. I'm that boy who smile when he sees your name pop up on the phone. I'm that boy who just wants to hold your hand. I'm that boy who will text you out of the blue just to let you know how much I love you. I'm that boy who will kiss you when you ramble on. I'm that boy who will laugh when you laugh. I'm that boy who will always be there for you. I'm that boy who misses you. and even though I haven't found you yet. I still miss you. I'm me.

I’m dreaming of the day I get to meet the girl of my life. dreaming of the feelings she will awake within me, how it will feel to just look at her knowing that she is only mine & I only her. knowing that whenever I want to I can just walk up to her & give her a kiss because she will be all mine. to hold, to love & to cherish.
I’m dreaming of the day I can sneak up in the morning to cook her breakfast & wake her up with a kiss & a smile. introduce her to my friends, we’ll drink some beers at my place before going out in the night surrounded by friends, music, lights & her. walk home at dawn with her, laughing & holding hands.
I’m dreaming of the day I can tell my mom & dad to put another plate on the table, to introduce her to my whole family & see their smiles. getting to meet her parents, her friends & realizing that she’s making me a part of her life. I’m dreaming of the day I can feel safe wherever I am because I know she is out there somewhere loving me just as much as I love her. I’m dreaming of the day I can say “I love you”
I’m waiting for the day I will see you & know my dreams have come true. I'm dreaming I want to be next to you, be able to hug you, share everything with you, spend my time with you and be happy with you...


~ Arfian Syahriza