Am I Wrong?

This aftnoon, i was lookin around my city. I was bored so I took it. I saw some views in every edge of streets I passed. Once street, i saw something terrible. Something that touched my heart at all and directly i was feelin pity to it. There was an old poor lady, she wore a hella bad clothes. I thought she was a beggar. Lord, she looked disgusting at all and i cant hold my instinct to help her. But i cant, I sat at the one corners of store, i was watching her pickin up some stuffs on the trash can.

When i was sitting, i was thinkin then. I was speakin inside my heart that no one knew. In my thought, i was wrong for living this life. I spent my parent's bugs for hanging out, hunting, shopping on mall, singing at karaoke, eating in the good restaurant and others. Even i did silly last night, when i was shopping with my 2 buddies. We bought a lot of shirts, clothes, slippers and other stuffs where i can added it up, it showed almost Rp 500.000 and stupidly i used it up in one night! I didnt think I was wrong at that time. I was feeling happy only tho. I didnt think for people like that beggar or else, i didnt think about the ways how my parents got money, i didnt think there are still a lot of poor people who more need money for living than for shopping or even just eating some yummy and expensive foods. I was, tho. I just dont know how to appreciate my money, i just dont know yet. Im a teenagers, a common teenagers who loves that stuffs and do whatever they like. But, other side i was thinking... i have another buddy which also a teenager. He doesnt spend a lot of money for vanity. So why the hell i cant do the same just like he does?! What i need is TRAINING!

Then, i came close to her and i gave her some bugs. I wish for a better life for her. I wish for a better life for me too. And imma try control my instinct to not using up my money in vain.. (:

Max Schneider

Maxwell George "Max" Schneider (born June 21, 1992) is an American singer, dancer, actor, model, and musician. He began performing at age three. He was the 2010 YoungArts Theater Winner. Since then, he has performed on television, was an understudy in 13 the musical, and modeled with Madonna. His newest TV show is How To Rock, where he plays Zander, the piano guitar in Gravity 5. Max also starred on Nickelodeon original Rags (film). He announced in April 2012 that he would tour with Victoria Justice in Summer 2012.
He also collaborated with Kurt Schneider and Victoria Justice in a Bruno Mars Medley and a Maroon 5 Medley. He had also did a cover of Without You By USHER. Schneider was raised in Woodstock, Manhattan, New York; he is Jewish and was Bar Mitzvahed


Well, thats some bios about him. It's reason time! Haha

The first time i knew him was when I was surfing on YouTube Official Twitter. At there, i found a link that leads me to his Medley video, fosho Maroon5 Medley by Kurt Schneider, Max and Victoria Justice. Directly I am falling in love to those 3 people!! They are so awesome. And the video and music amazed me at all tho!! Im collecting Max's vidoes then.. From cover by Usher - Without You, Gotye - Somebody That I Used To Know, Bruno Mars - It Will Rain and others. Yessss!!! He did it well! :) And officially, I'm such his fan now!!

Selcted Pics!! (:

One Time

I used to be the one who lived in solitude. Day by day with nothin' and i didnt do any stuffs. I know, it's horrible, disgusting and i myself dont even want it. Then, i found you, the special one. Yes, you were so special at that time. Too special causes finally i lost my solitude and i've never felt alone longer. You did it!!

Then someday, in the fright night, i was brooding, i was looking for some ways to reward you kindness, your  special. Naturally, i promised myself to always be there for you, accompany you, chilling with you, help you, and a lot others. I myself even willin to waste my precious time, my worth time for only with you. Because i know, you're good and i want to reward your kindness also i've promised myself before. You asked a lot of stuffs, i answered. You wanted me to do a lot of stuffs, i did it. And overall, i did it for you as long as i could..

Yes! We're being best friend, best partner ever!! And with you, i found something that i didnt find with someone else.. With you, i know how to act right, how to think right, cuz you teach me a lot of life's secret! We shared our life, we told each other and we shared our secrets. You're the most different one i've ever seen. Yes and till now i still keep it. You got my belief and I got yours. Ye, we're worthy :) And I was so happy for having you!

It happens for a very looooooooooong term. And we're getting very very close till now. I mean, the communication is good! Yep! Everybody is gettin jealous of us i know it. But now I'm jealous with everybody.. The beauty has gone, cant stay longer, belief finally split, indifferent is on, and i dont know why?

Are you busy? Are you bored? Or any else? Tell me then! But You dont speak it out, and i will never know why then. Nowadays, i just feel that you're different tho. I dont know, i really really dont know. I dont know the new you, the most different with the first you i knew. A lot of thoughts come on my mind and it just disturb me at all tho! My life, my precious life seems like highly dependent on you. Idk, am I addict? No!!!!

I learn it, i watch it, and i make conclusion. YES! The conclusion may be.. you're just a bean which separated from the chaff or any else, you're just temporary and wont permanent. The new you never do the same with what i've done to you. WE ARE NOT WORTH ANY LONGER! a lot of times i try to remove it or just I familiarize myself without you, slowly and slowly then.

So i finally think : "Why the fuck I have to do what do you want to, easily tho? You dont even put on any efforts, so why the fuck should I?". It's about EQUIVALENCE!! It's a bout BELIEF! About FRIENDS and OLD RELATIONSHIP WE HAVE MADE!! But, you didnt respect though only one of them, so lemme do the same, my mate!!! I know our thinking is not same and it's on different ways now. I appreciate it!

Good 4 You..

Spain as the EUFA EURO 2012 Champion!

Yes! The final match has been held at Kiev, Ukraine. The match confronted Spain and Italy. Yeaa i guess they deserve to be there. One favorite, both captain are goalkeeper. But, unfortunately, my team failed at the stage match, The Three Lions England and Der Panzer Germany. Nope.. ;)

Okay, im pretty sure you guys was watching the match too, so i no need to write the match's report, haha Imma share the photos of spain's winning yesterday!! Again... My Fernando Jose Torres Sanz is choosen to be top scorer and he got golden boot :) awesome, each TORRES and MATA gave a goal for Spain..
the score is Spain 4-0 Italy anw..

Torres's Golden Boot 

Torres kissed the trophy 

ahh the team :) awesome

the celebration was great!!

La Furia Roja Fans

Torres, Olalla, Leo and Nora

Torres, Olalla and Leo Torres (:

What a daddy!!

Here it's my idol :DD

Dirimu (Yang kutahu)

“Dirimu (Yang kutahu)”

by @ArfianRV

Dirimu, yang kutahu kau punya senyum terindah
Dirimu, yang kutahu punya hati seputih kapas
Dirimu, yang kutahu kerlingkan mata dihadapanku
Dirimu, yang kutahu penuh tipu apa kau merinduku
 Kau dan aku seperti air dan minyak
Berjuta pertanyaan haus ingin menguak
Tapi, kita diam…
Hati dan pikiran berusaha meredam
Aku beradu diri bersama batinku
Meracun diri membunuh cintamu
Kau sesatkanku di labirin tak berujung
Meninggalkan bersama harapan tergantung
Dirimu dan aku seperti air dan minyak
Tak akan pernah bersatu atau tersimak

Teman Karib

“Teman Karib”

by @ArfianRV

Teman karibku…
Tingkah polahmu tak seperti dulu
Semarak keluar ego sadismu
Ada apa gerangan denganmu?
Teman karibku…
Tertaut malam aku merindumu
Merangkap sendiri dengan kesendirianku
Tak ada kabar dan pesan darimu
Terlanjur abadi sendiri ini bersama malamku
Kau yang dulu menyapa
Bersalam pesan bertulis nama
Ku terka-terka dalam pikiran
Kapan kau akan datang kawan?
Terbiasa sudah hariku denganmu
Berjuta kata kita isyaratkan bersama
Menggusur sunyinya kesendirian
Namun, kini kau tak pernah datang
Atau hanya kirimkan sebuah pesan
Kau hadiahiku sebuah kesendirian

Hancur Rasa

“Hancur Rasa”

by @ArfianRV

Cintamu selalu terbayang
Muncul dipikiran terbang melayang
Menunggu kehadiranmu tak kunjung datang
Selalu kudambakan sebuah tenang
Kau bagai kunang-kunang di pagi hari
Beradu diri bersama sinar mentari
Tapi aku mati!
Karena cintamu membunuh nyali
Bersama cintaku ku kubur diriku
Langit senja pergi bersamamu
Meninggalkanku bersama kesendirianku
Kekal terlanjur sepiku
Kehilangan cintaku dalam dirimu
Kau menipu rindu
Mengerdilkan aku dengan egomu

The last moments with Vira and Gasu-D

It was a separation. My and Our separation with Gasu-D and Vira. Yes, we gotta separate because we continue our class in eleventh class. And ofc we're gun` be in different class. And for Vira, she moves to Jogjakarta. It was a sadness for us and especially for Rizki (her bf) and Salma her bff. Here are some photos..

 

Together!! :)

 We took it in front of Vira's home

 And this is US!

Aha, this one is my fave

BACK!!

Hay you guys my readers!! :) Sooo long no see, i've been missing to write, to reply the box, and the others. Sorry, i got so many business these days. So i cant reach to write or update my blog. Feel so sick at all.
I missed in my blog, so many memorable moments for me. Chelsea's winning in UEFA Champions League, my english camp, final examination and many others. So, im so sorry for this displeasure ;)

I'm on vacation now! I have a lot of free times and I can do anything as much as i wanna do. So, im gun' try to keep update my blog so you guys can read mine ;)
Dont forget, follow my twitter @ArfianRV