I May Not.. But it's fair

The first sentence i'd love to write is.. I may not as perfect as him, as them, but I have my own perfection.
Well indeed, my life is just different and me different too. I admit it. I'm not that kind of boy which is really good at basketball or volley or else. I'm not that kind of boy who can finish a math test nicely. I'm not that kind of boy who is able to arrange pretty words into a particularly beautiful sentences, well I'm just not.
I was jealous, I was envy, I was so weak and I was so frustrated about my own.
A friend of mine have ever told me something for person who is not really good understanding faith like me and she said "God is just fair to give you your life". I doubted that at first, but God never! He showed me everything about. And here...
i dont have to train so hard just to win a title of champion in basketball or volley or else otherwise that boy got a disability in understanding lessons at school because he just too much on focusing his championship, and he lost. He left behind then.
I dont have to pay for lotta money just to teach me more about math more than my teacheer have given to me at class so that i could be smarter than any other students in the class. Well, school is not a competition. it's about how we understand it, use it, and apply it to our life so then we can be useful for our own self, people and this country then.
And i dont have to get conflicted with girls because of what ive sent to them but they admited that as a romantically love sentences dedicated to them, in fact thats not true. And it causes overanalyze and directly drirves me to stresses.
God just wants me to enjoy the life He had given and fill it with joyful, happiness as long as I breath still before my time to to back to Him is coming. So then i can do anything as much as i want to, i can bring the happiness to people i'd want to, i just can without any problems haunt me over.
He created us with a justice. We have abilities who other people dont, and we also have different disabilities with other people. It means, just balance.
Just think it over like seriously... Behind your sorrow and sadness for not realizing your excess, they actually are still standing and waiting for you to realize them.


With Love..
Arfian